Last One on the Blog Train

The seven deadly sins, some say, encompas human acts that could send them diretly to Hell (or Purgatory or cause them to be reincarnated as a house fly). Envy, Sloth, Gluttony, Greed, Lust, Vengence; and the one which I shamelessly celebrate this weekend, Pride.

The irony here being that people have to be proud. Proud of who they are and what they do, or they can be devoured by their own self-loathing. Being a Proud member of a sexual minority group in today's society means embracing all aspects of your life as parts of a greater whole. I wouldn't really be Matt Scott if I denied my homosexuality. I'm not really Matt Scott when I censor or hide my attraction to men. Isn't that a bigger sin? Lying?

I'm spending this weekend at the Pride of all Pride's - in New York City. Slowly, over the past three days, the buzz has been growing. More and more rainbow flags have gone up. People are dressing a little flashier. People are more likely to say 'hi' to a stranger on the sidewalk. People are using a formally declared weekend to truly be themselves.

Unfortunately it is society outside of our own (global) community that causes us to "tone it down" the other 362 days of the year. It's still a fight. Not about gay marriage, or adoption rights or even the ability to show affection to a member of the same sex in public, but an internal fight to get everyone to be 100% themselves. If we would all stop censoring and start using our collective power to CAUSE the change that we cry out for during this weekend, I don't think Pride would be considered a sin anymore.

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Matt
Birthday:	August 7
Birthplace:	Fairfax, VA
Current Location:	Alexandria, VA
Eye Color:	Green
Hair Color:	Brown
Height:	6'
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Polish
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Restaurant Flats
Your Weakness:	Men with an accent
Your Fears:	To say something stupid
Your Perfect Pizza:	Mushroom, Black Olive, Sausage
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Successful store opening in NYC
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	What's up
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Coffee
Your Best Physical Feature:	Legs
Your Bedtime:	It depends
Your Most Missed Memory:	Can't remember
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke (Diet)
MacDonalds or Burger King:	McDonald's
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Neither
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Coffee
Do you Smoke:	yes
Do you Swear:	yes
Do you Sing:	yes
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	yes
Do you want to go to College:	no, been there, done that
Do you want to get Married:	no
Do you belive in yourself:	yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no
Do you think you are Attractive:	yes
Are you a Health Freak:	yes
Do you get along with your Parents:	yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yes
Do you play an Instrument:
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	no
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	yes
In the past month have you gone on a Date:
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	yes
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	no
How do you want to Die:	With a book in my hand
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Porn Star
What country would you most like to Visit:	Poland
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Brown
Favourite Hair Color:	Brown
Short or Long Hair:	Short
Height:	5' - 5'10"
Weight:	over 200
Best Clothing Style:	casual, nothing designer
Number of Drugs I have taken:	6
Number of CDs I own:	too many to count
Number of Piercings:	2
Number of Tattoos:	3
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	1
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

// posted by ProudJock Matt @ 3:40 AM 0 Comments

OK - so my postings are becoming spotty at best. Where this blog, in the past, was the one place I could escape to and let thoughts out; it doesn't seem to need to serve that purpose anymore.

Friends are coming out of the proverbial wood-work. Since my recent split I seem to be adding more and more people to the list of people that I hang out with. Because of this I find no reason to escape anymore.

I think it comes down to finally feeling like and acting like myself after so long. I guess when one is in a relationship they become a little guarded. At least I did. It's nice to be a little more free. Its nice to feel confidence enough to go up to and introduce myself to guys I've either admired from a-far (is that a word?) or on some level found extremely sexy and fun.

Ironic how all of this comes to light as I get a phone call this week that changes everything. A phone call that I've been waiting on for a long time. By the end of the summer I'll be moving to NYC. Just as everything is forming up to be the way I wanted it to be in my life - I'm going to up root myself and start over.

Its time though. After 28 years of living in the DC area, its time to see what I'm made of. It's time to open Pandora's Box and prove to myself that I will always survive. So get ready for the "Misadventures in the 212." Matt, I steal proudly from you - lol.