Last One on the Blog Train

I have to say it took a note from a new friend of mine to make me realize that I hadn't been on here to post anything in over a month. It wasn't that I had forgotten about it, but after the last post and the weekend in question, I wasn't sure what I wanted to talk about.

I'm recently, very recently, single. My partner and I decided that instead of continuing to live in the situation we placed ourselves in, it was time to truly end our relationship after 4.5 years. No hard feeling at all, and I wish him all the best, truly. But I learned some things about myself and what I need out of a relationship. I was 22 when we started, and he was my first serious relationship since coming out. I guess I was ignorant to what gay relationships, or any relationships for that matter, could really be. Like I've said before, I sheilded myself from creating real friendships until recently, and at times I was scared of the supposed fact that ending my relationship would leave me alone. Stupid me. (ha, ha, ha)

So its back to basics; back to making my snide comments on pop culture, which I ironically take gleeful part in on a daily basis.

Take my recent cell phone purchase. One of those ultra skinny models with the technology available so I can use a wireless headset or use it to "talk" to my hand held computer. That day I was Capitalism and Consumerism at its best (or worst). I walked right in to the store, pointed at the model, said I wanted all of the accessories, and promptly got some strange yet excited looks from the sales associate. I guess he had already spent a day with customers haggling with him over what phone they could get for free and talking down the price of their contracts.

What have I used this ULTRA PHONE for? Calling people, thats it. I haven't taken a picture, or downloaded a song or Bluetoothed it to anything, but the sheer possibility of being able to was worth the (undisclosed amount.)

So with that I'll say I'll be on here more. Maybe its because I now have more time to take in those little crazy parts of life that I like to talk about. Thanks, Ray, for making me feel like what I have to say is somewhat interesting.

"Now its time to say goodbye...."